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So many mistakes, all of which felt huge at the time—some of which seem relatively trivial now, but are still important, because, most of all, I learned from them. And so the embarrassment of these mistakes is masked by acknowledgment, embracement, and recovery through understanding. 

I think that sometimes the most difficult person to understand is yourself. As you get older you quickly become more and more aware of all the layers. There are too many layers. There are layers to yourself that feel so normal at one moment and so horrid the next. And that is, in my experience, the most frightening feeling of all: when you look in the mirror and you can’t recognize the person you’ve seen each time you’ve looked in the mirror over the past 20 something years. You are ashamed of yourself.

Have you been there? Well…. sure you have.  That’s life isn’t it? That’s growing up.  What’s important are the lessons we learn during these moments. 

This year I learned to accept the fact that layers change, so people change, and relationships change, so love… inevitably changes. Sometimes love changed is love lost, but lessons lie amongst the residue that are painful to face, but the most important to know completely. 

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28